a sweet story although it's just a time ♥

just found that my favourite dimple guy had removed his FB and everything that i could not find anymore... thought what had happened? we are barely talking each other on the cyber... i seldom know about what happens to him but whatever it is... i still care him as a dear friend who i used to like in the past and the present as well although in fact everything is changed... i mean our status are different already. i am attached whilst he is still hunting for the right one.... still we are friends what... i don't know if he really treats me as a friend or not...?

oh well... i admit i always check on his FB updates, love to do so... but his FB remains quiet... not much active as mine... a day before yesterday, his FB was there... just checking instantly but nothing was updated apart from the breakfast link that he invited one but none replied him... i just ignored this part since i am not living in US though... mmm...

and yesterday... when i went to his page but it didn't appear... i found this was strange? i tried to open his page but can't... then only i realized he was totally removed his FB account for goods. i was real shocking for this. why he removed? tried to recall any reasons... at first i saw his innocent picture, i told him this was real cute because he looked innocent in this picture and he laughed, mentioned that we shall meet again later this year... and onward, he removed all the profile picture except the dull picture which he looked unhappy in black and white mode...

and NOW, he is not longer at FB account, i don't know how to find him or contact him? i also not sure he keeps my number in case he wants to contact me? i am sure he would not keeps one! perhaps because he refused to give me his US number when i requested that time... :(

i still remember vividly when i found him in FB for first time was in November 2009, it was 4 years ago... then had spoke on and off... and he barely spoke to me until last year which was on Mayan New Year, he contacted me back thru FB message. we spoke thru FB as well as SMS which was given by him. that was a Malaysia number NOT US number... :( he used this number temporarily only. not for permanent one.

oh well, we met for first time, at Setia Walk by 9am sharp after 6 days from the date we first spoke. he wore the Red shirt and white short pant, brown shoes whilst i wore the baby blue dress which he said this was really nice.

*source - Starbuck Setia Walk*

:: memory :: memory ::

that was where he waited

for me... ♥

yay the Starbuck where we met.... everytime i passby there, i will miss that memory where we had created the memories once. although it was just a short time but still i had fun with him but i didn't know whether was he fun with me or not... whatever was it... i still appreciate those times with him... although for first time and perhaps it would be the last time as well because he removed the FB account and i thought he would not keeping his words to meet me again later this year... perhaps. in fact when he spoke that he would meet me again later this year, i even prepare to bake the cheddar cheese cake for him when he is back to Malaysia... BUT now it may not happens anymore...

the memory just fades away...

he is not there anymore...

i am really upset with him...

even he wanna removes his FB account, at least he should speaks or informs me and i could have his contact number so on... but he never did so...

now i totally lost, don't know how to contact him again...

sometimes i really miss when he texted me by calling me the full name of mine... i felt warm and loving.

i think he should knows i am used to crazy of him during secondary school and now... but he seems ... i don't know how to explain but i really want to get together with him for once... love is hard to predictable but if i don't do now, i shall get regret later on...

but now, i think i don't need these anymore since he doesn't appreciate everything we created and i guess he thought this was just a meeting between strangers.

oh well, just ignore... i still appreciate and will miss him as well as the memories we had created ONCE and the ONLY MEMORY! after 10 years plus since we left secondary school... i have been looking for him ups and downs... eventually i found him 4 years ago in FB. i was thankful to Facebook because it helped me to contact him back BUT now he is not longer there...

i don't know if it's worth that i had created the memories with him once? sounds funny and awful!

never mind, i think he just needs times and spaces for him alone... i just could give him blessings and hope he takes well care of himself and happy everyday!

Lev, I miss you... take care!

xxx

back to work after a hiatus - - -

i have been on MC these 2 days. and i am back to working life as usually although it's a Friday Blues! hmm... sometimes i feel this company is like a Zombie house where nobody greets each other. indeed, i miss my previous first company where i worked for first time after moved to here from Johor 9 years ago. that time i was a full time housewife in Johor and i was indeed unhappy every second, minute, month and year when i was in Johor after married and had my first child. we had argued almost everyday due to this reason which i spoke out that i wanna move back to where i was born and grew up, there's my hometown where i have my family, friends and life there not in Johor! *sorry to say this, this is from my bottom of heart, i never thought to stay in Johor forever...*

okay back to the topic i mentioned earlier... i have been working here for 2 years plus... this coming August sooner, it would be 3 years. the time flies so fast and there's nothing to be challenged all the years i work here and i feel boring and not so energetic as before.  of course, the projects keep repeating  the same, no shiok at all de...

so far, i speak frankly. here is can be said okay lor, compared to the previous one before i started to join this current company. the previous one where i worked in Bandar Kinrara, near Giant but it was in industrial area, i don't want to tell the name of company because i don't want to bad mouth about this. enough to say for now. i had a bad experience during working at my previous company. bosses and manager were so biassed. they cared one more than everyone although the mad dog i meant was the manager always screamed madly during working times and even screamed in the phone...

we all were really pissed off with her but at times she is a kinded heart, just that she and i were not that so "ngam"... hard to communicate each other. not only this problem, i also had a bad experience to encounter everyone in the company. everyone was so hypocrite and pretending to be nice with me but back of the story was different, it was like i was stabbed behind without my realization! damn eh?

no longer after few months after i was assigned to work here, i tendered a resignation letter and everyone seemed to be happy. so bye to that previous company! i don't want to mention some more about that company. pissed off though eh?

okay, since i joined this current company 2 years ago, so far everything is okay. just that there's still a slightly politic each other! i don't trust most of them because once i was stabbed, i knew who's the culprit and won't longer socialize with them anymore, i keep low profile and doing my works at times is better than gossiping that waste my time only. agree?

okay, definitely not all colleagues are meant to do so, certain people only yeah!

close one eye, everything is fine :)

xxx

miss those old days

i had left SMDJ for more than 10 years, should be 15 years by now... if i am not mistaken! i do miss those old days when i was at secondary school... especially i had a gang once but now it seems no longer being in a gang but acts like strangers each other... some of us are still keeping in touch. the rest, i totally have no idea!

after interacted with them sometimes, i had learned more than i did... before that, i didn't know anything about the internet, MiRC, ICQ and etc... i even joined them to meet MiRC guys which they got to know from the internet, although that was slightly dangerous! but i didn't know anything and everything. i thought it was just "a friend meets a new friend" something like that...

countless, we had met with many guys from the cyber such like ICQ and MiRC... that time were not existing with MSN Messenger, YM and Skype yet...

i still remember the first guy we had met in One Utama was Mr Ricky Chia. we always meet up at cafe next to my Kasturi tuition centre @ Kuala Lumpur. i knew one or two friends of mine liked him but i had seized him from them although they met him first before me... but they can't do anything because we always meet up almost every weekends that time.

next, they went to meet another new friends from MiRC as well but they didn't bring me along because they were afraid those guys would fall for me. hence, i didn't join for next meetings since then BUT they brought their new friends come to SMDJ fair, i can't remember what was that name of celebration in SMDJ. yeah i had the photos but need to fork out from my store!!!!! i shall post when i find one of these days :)

one of those Klang guys, yeah we still remain friends until now... we had dated once, went to Sunway Pyramid to catch up a movie... even saw him at his Sunway college sometimes when i visited my good friend, Jess that time studying at there too.

yeah our first movie!!!! but we had watched at half way, then he requested to leave since he was afraid i got bored with this movie... everytime i look at this movie, i recall those times with him! that time i was too young and naive! i even bought a blue shirt and a Smiley saving tube for him and guess what? he said he didn't like the blue colour!!!!! O_o

however, he still loved whatever i gave him! but it becomes a history for now...

long stories to cut, i do miss them till today especially Mr Ricky Chia... i wonder where is he now? how is he now? hmm... as for the Klang guy, we still keep in touch right now and he got fatter than before... lolx!

i do miss everyone in SMDJ but the memories seem to be faded away... we become strangers each other...

perhaps?

oh well... :)