it's quite upset after the trial for 2 months plus since we took over the childcare business, yes me and my cousin brother.... sometimes i am not so happy about the way he handle the business...
like many things that i really am not satisfied but what to do. he is the big investor and i am only the small potato that he just could offered for all... anyway this doesn't benefit me though because whatever he talked all just empty promises and never kept promises at times.
he mentioned many times that he would eventually leaves this centre for me to control here but it seemed never happening. he still comes back here and the centre is still messy under his control. when i was here, the centre is still in control by setting the rules and etc so that the kids could be independently working on him / her own without guides. but when he is here, he will does everything. it seems he has to spoil them in silent mode.
and one thing i am quite disappointing is the parents all are referring him as the big boss as well as the principal here NOT ME. it's really a joke that he behaves like that. never had a formal introduction for me with the new teachers and the parents as well.
i don't know what was he thinking actually. all my plans that i have been planning for some times seems to be taken over by him and all is him... so sad huh?
no wonder when i paid a praying for my late mummy, i did ask my late mummy about it and the coins were not giving the response, kept giving the same patterns :(
i thought my late mummy was not blessing on this business between me and my cousin brother. i think it will be involved a lot of troubles later on as his personal attitudes really not so impressing!!!! even the centre also has problems that he might not settled although he can't expect it too much from the teachers.
one thing, i already advised him many times yet he ignores all the times, it depends the situation like when i told him that the adults should be set good roles for the children and he never did it... so does the China teacher...
i see the China teacher is slight stubborn and sometimes she doesn't respect me as the principal. oh well, we have the minute meetings almost every twice per month yet there's always having the problem. there are two languages in the meeting which is unfair for the major of teachers who are speaking English whilst the only one teacher speaks Mandarin all the time. my cousin brother even asked us to learn Chinese in order to communicate better with her. it's hilarious that we are running the time and we can't keep translating for her all the time.... this also he can't understand instead of making the situation worse.
i know he is the big investor but sometimes he never refers to me when i am his business partner indeed. why?
i find this is really ridiculous.
i am regretting that much because i told him about my plans. otherwise, this plan would be mine and i would be the BOSS whereas i am now today but it is reserved though! so sad huh???
i am never be a big boss for now.... perhaps but in the future i shall be a BOSS. perhaps i am a better leader than him.
i can say he can't be a good leader though as i knew how he handles the kids. i had told him what can do what can't do... yet he never listens to me.
okay, i got no comments about it. i am pretty disappointed about it....
duno what will happening for the next....
sighs...
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Monday, October 21, 2013
Thursday, August 1, 2013
what a tsunami day!!!
Now i realize how terrible he is now, treats me like a stranger when in the new house and when in office, he will be nicer with me because he needs my helps to amend his grammars. How bad eh...
And i am quite disappointed by ways he treats me. Its not like which he should cares me in as his wife but nobody!!!
When i asked him to help taking the stool for me. He didn't take for me but asked me to take it myself but he was next to the stool why not help??
so selfish!!!! Btw, yesterday was my last day of working at company and i have submitted the absence from work letter for one month after spoke with Madam. I thought i can take at least 60 days leave but Madam seemed disagree because we had spoken that i was given 30 days to work at centre. Either resuming back to office after one month or just resign when there's getting better in centre but i can not guarantee it though. I was slightly worried about it...
Anyway, its my new challenge in my life after been in the comfort zone... i need to move on what i supposed to change the life style. At least trying rather than nothing at all and i don't want to be like my hubby! He has no motivation at all, slightly coward though and always objects whatever i do but i just ignore what he talks sometimes not logical at all.
Our thinkings are different. I am kinda of ambitious and would like to try n error whilst my hubby is just fine with this situation now. How crashed eh???
Plus, his attitude and thinking are very childish and immature! All the times he can drives me bonker and mad but my patiences had taught me to control my patiences when dealing with a stupid and immature guy like him!!!
Oh well... selfish, stupid and immature old fella... until when you can realise?????
ighs!!!!!!!
xxx
And i am quite disappointed by ways he treats me. Its not like which he should cares me in as his wife but nobody!!!
When i asked him to help taking the stool for me. He didn't take for me but asked me to take it myself but he was next to the stool why not help??
so selfish!!!! Btw, yesterday was my last day of working at company and i have submitted the absence from work letter for one month after spoke with Madam. I thought i can take at least 60 days leave but Madam seemed disagree because we had spoken that i was given 30 days to work at centre. Either resuming back to office after one month or just resign when there's getting better in centre but i can not guarantee it though. I was slightly worried about it...
Anyway, its my new challenge in my life after been in the comfort zone... i need to move on what i supposed to change the life style. At least trying rather than nothing at all and i don't want to be like my hubby! He has no motivation at all, slightly coward though and always objects whatever i do but i just ignore what he talks sometimes not logical at all.
Our thinkings are different. I am kinda of ambitious and would like to try n error whilst my hubby is just fine with this situation now. How crashed eh???
Plus, his attitude and thinking are very childish and immature! All the times he can drives me bonker and mad but my patiences had taught me to control my patiences when dealing with a stupid and immature guy like him!!!
Oh well... selfish, stupid and immature old fella... until when you can realise?????
ighs!!!!!!!
xxx
Friday, July 26, 2013
finally...
i am really blessed to have Madam as my boss... never expected that she is really an understanding boss. all the while i thought she is fierce and very sided one... but oh boy, was i wrong. she is really kind-hearted...
indeed, i supposed to pass the resign letter for her but it was reversed. after had a long chat, she asked me to keep back the letter and submit the leave letter instead. how happy i was when she mentioned it. i am touched and obviously blessed that i really have a such good boss.
it will be officially i start on leave for one month by next month to study centre's management which she allowed me to do so. at very least my existing job is here in case if anything happens, i still can go back to my current company to resume working as usual.
anyhow, i just hope the business is growing well once i take over. may everything is fine...
xxx
indeed, i supposed to pass the resign letter for her but it was reversed. after had a long chat, she asked me to keep back the letter and submit the leave letter instead. how happy i was when she mentioned it. i am touched and obviously blessed that i really have a such good boss.
it will be officially i start on leave for one month by next month to study centre's management which she allowed me to do so. at very least my existing job is here in case if anything happens, i still can go back to my current company to resume working as usual.
anyhow, i just hope the business is growing well once i take over. may everything is fine...
xxx
delay no more...
it seems delaying no more and my good colleague, WC asked me...
"have you told your hubby"
i replied, "NO, if i tell him now, there would be more objections, hence i just go ahead without his permissions..."
the time is tougher now and i knew the day would be coming...
today is public holiday yet we have to work. oh no, i can't delay anymore, i need to make up my mind by hand over the letter. the centre is awaiting me to join as soon as possible.
everything for the centre has done, just left me!!! a matter of timing!!!
looking at my close friends, they are really supporting my decision to join the centre, it is obviously no doubt for me to tender the resignation letter and starts a new life as a person in charge of the centre. yes i am... despite of my unhappy hubby who never agrees on whatever i have done, he can't stop me although he voiced out that i am selfish, never think about him, never discuss with him and etc but i can't take it anymore, if i want i must do for our better life.
otherwise, if i listen to my hubby today and don't go for it, i might be super regret 100% later on. okay, no matter what will happen later, i still determined to go for it...
i just pray HE blesses me in everything, have a surprise and miracle which would happen to me any sooner if the time permits.
i hope my family changes the mind on me... i am no longer who am i... i am the one who going to fight the own happiness and better life rather than remaining the same living where we are now...
i wanna the improvement of livings for my family as well as for my children.
because of i am able not providing whatever they want, now i wan provide them as much as i can once i have own one and i wanna give the best for my family and my siblings who always help me a lot in past, i will never forget their helps and supports. i will be there for them whenever they need.
okay what i need to do is i wanna to change the life into better one...
please...?!!
please give me the strength to change the life.... :)
and....
Madam came already but she went to R&D... :(
she seems busier than me though and i am wondering how would it be when i go to meet Madam out of sudden? perhaps she knew i wanna leaving already?
xxx
Thursday, July 25, 2013
oh dear... i am still hesitating - - -
for this very last minute, i still hesitated to hand over the letter although i have prepared the letter since on Monday until now... the letter is here but i am seem to be lost ways to think...
i started to recall the past when i was firm to fight my own and wanna leaving this company. i started to browse the business and etc... and i found the centre in Sri Petaling as i have mentioned in previous entry. oh well, i have the investor this time so i don't need to dig out my money to invest instead to wait the end of year's dividend...
but funnily is when everything is done as my cousin brother had got them done especially setting up SDN BHD, creating the company account and etc. i started to become PANIC...
the most funny when my brother was preparing a document, register as a SDN BHD company, has opened an account for the company. i suddenly felt uneasy and started to feel regret that i was mentally and physically not ready for this.
regret no use. this was already initiated. indeed it is...
the business is there...
just that i need to tender the resignation letter. but i still doubted till now...
weird.
i am so scared.
yet there are many friends support my decision to leave this company and heading the new phrase, starting a OWN business... i knew there's a lot of risks to wait but it's all depending on my hard works.
don't know if my decision to start own business is just right one for myself??!! because since day 1, when my cousin brother spoke with my hubby, he started feeling unhappy and upset, not fully supporting me 100% on my ideas on this. he kept talking that doing business is really a lot of risks and need a lot of responsible to handle this centre. not like me, he thought i am just a playful one... :(
i knew i am kinda playful one but when coming the serious matters, i thought longer and considered for our good futures. i knew there are SURE 100% ups and downs for this but for the very beginning, there are tougher times at time but everything would be fine eventually...
my closer members support me on this but i knew they only can support me and they are not doing this business though so they wouldn't understand how i feel... i am really scared, confused, uneasy and many many troubles in my mind now.... and i don't know how to overcome it...
unless there's at least a person to fully support me, but there's none.
my hubby is kinda "kiasu"... he can't accept the fact that i would start my own business. he totally disagreed. for sure.
my family?
i haven't informed them yet and i don't think they would support my decision... despite of they knew i am currently working still fine but they don't know the real situation that i have encountered now... who else can understand me?
even my hubby spoke, every business can't promise can success or not... every business has risks... but for me, if never try how i would know if it goes well?
like when i first time baked the cupcake, at beginning it was not so good but i polished my skills everyday by baking it, my skills seem to be polished well now... it's just the same basic where we need to apply our skills by practicing...
try and error, yes it is...
but now it's different...
i am about leaving the security job which promises to provide the monthly salary and living in the comfort zone. and IF i really leave this job and heading this business, it might be another story. my income might be lower than my current income and may be handling everything by myself. my current job, just design and design only. everything is already settled by them.
much differences...
so i have to think carefully but if i don't leave this job and remaining the same life style, there's no changes but getting worse years by...
why so?
our salaries really can't saved already, everything needs to be spent... so nothing left for us to save retirement accounts and i realized that our ages reach at 30an yet we have nothing to save for the future funds yet our children need use a lot of expenses to pay for their next educations eg. secondary, college or University?
that's the point i thought now...
i knew my hubby thought these too but he doesn't seem to try to make more money for now... i asked him once whether is he comfortable with his current job now? he said what to do, everywhere is same... the most important is getting the monthly salary. so do i too but i thought it is no longer working on this method because everyone like me thought to work for people can't be last forever unless the company really provides the good salary and benefits like my friend one now working in Indonesia. obviously he is traveling to every countries to work in construction field which sent by his HQ. his salary almost 50k per month... it's unbelievable and it's no doubt he is enjoying these benefits provided by his current company... the salary can cover his retirement days later. and he is not working in Malaysia though.
how wonderful he is now with this current job. and our salaries now really insufficient and i can't think where we could top up the financial for the end of month everytime we pay bills and etc...
i am going to crazy if this still keeping the same way...
no improvement at all. and my hubby likes to go luxury times such as catching up a movie, going to fast food and etc which i really wanna to cut down but can't...
*SIGHS*
so how?
i am dilemma now...
very very much....
*SAD*
life goes on anyway despite of there's no support from my close family for me.... especially my hubby, he is the most "kiasu" and coward...
:(
xxx
i started to recall the past when i was firm to fight my own and wanna leaving this company. i started to browse the business and etc... and i found the centre in Sri Petaling as i have mentioned in previous entry. oh well, i have the investor this time so i don't need to dig out my money to invest instead to wait the end of year's dividend...
but funnily is when everything is done as my cousin brother had got them done especially setting up SDN BHD, creating the company account and etc. i started to become PANIC...
the most funny when my brother was preparing a document, register as a SDN BHD company, has opened an account for the company. i suddenly felt uneasy and started to feel regret that i was mentally and physically not ready for this.
regret no use. this was already initiated. indeed it is...
the business is there...
just that i need to tender the resignation letter. but i still doubted till now...
weird.
i am so scared.
yet there are many friends support my decision to leave this company and heading the new phrase, starting a OWN business... i knew there's a lot of risks to wait but it's all depending on my hard works.
don't know if my decision to start own business is just right one for myself??!! because since day 1, when my cousin brother spoke with my hubby, he started feeling unhappy and upset, not fully supporting me 100% on my ideas on this. he kept talking that doing business is really a lot of risks and need a lot of responsible to handle this centre. not like me, he thought i am just a playful one... :(
i knew i am kinda playful one but when coming the serious matters, i thought longer and considered for our good futures. i knew there are SURE 100% ups and downs for this but for the very beginning, there are tougher times at time but everything would be fine eventually...
my closer members support me on this but i knew they only can support me and they are not doing this business though so they wouldn't understand how i feel... i am really scared, confused, uneasy and many many troubles in my mind now.... and i don't know how to overcome it...
unless there's at least a person to fully support me, but there's none.
my hubby is kinda "kiasu"... he can't accept the fact that i would start my own business. he totally disagreed. for sure.
my family?
i haven't informed them yet and i don't think they would support my decision... despite of they knew i am currently working still fine but they don't know the real situation that i have encountered now... who else can understand me?
even my hubby spoke, every business can't promise can success or not... every business has risks... but for me, if never try how i would know if it goes well?
like when i first time baked the cupcake, at beginning it was not so good but i polished my skills everyday by baking it, my skills seem to be polished well now... it's just the same basic where we need to apply our skills by practicing...
try and error, yes it is...
but now it's different...
i am about leaving the security job which promises to provide the monthly salary and living in the comfort zone. and IF i really leave this job and heading this business, it might be another story. my income might be lower than my current income and may be handling everything by myself. my current job, just design and design only. everything is already settled by them.
much differences...
so i have to think carefully but if i don't leave this job and remaining the same life style, there's no changes but getting worse years by...
why so?
our salaries really can't saved already, everything needs to be spent... so nothing left for us to save retirement accounts and i realized that our ages reach at 30an yet we have nothing to save for the future funds yet our children need use a lot of expenses to pay for their next educations eg. secondary, college or University?
that's the point i thought now...
i knew my hubby thought these too but he doesn't seem to try to make more money for now... i asked him once whether is he comfortable with his current job now? he said what to do, everywhere is same... the most important is getting the monthly salary. so do i too but i thought it is no longer working on this method because everyone like me thought to work for people can't be last forever unless the company really provides the good salary and benefits like my friend one now working in Indonesia. obviously he is traveling to every countries to work in construction field which sent by his HQ. his salary almost 50k per month... it's unbelievable and it's no doubt he is enjoying these benefits provided by his current company... the salary can cover his retirement days later. and he is not working in Malaysia though.
how wonderful he is now with this current job. and our salaries now really insufficient and i can't think where we could top up the financial for the end of month everytime we pay bills and etc...
i am going to crazy if this still keeping the same way...
no improvement at all. and my hubby likes to go luxury times such as catching up a movie, going to fast food and etc which i really wanna to cut down but can't...
*SIGHS*
so how?
i am dilemma now...
very very much....
*SAD*
life goes on anyway despite of there's no support from my close family for me.... especially my hubby, he is the most "kiasu" and coward...
:(
xxx
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Friday, July 12, 2013
2 weeks is the hectic period...
oh well, it seems i have neglected my dear BLOG for past 2 weeks due to busy with many things such as convention, company trip, painting the new house, etc... it was real busier in past weeks and i had not having a good rest of myself though... :(
ups and downs, i have been gone all the ways just to get myself a good one but it seems delayed as i was interrupted by many things causing i have missed them. oh well, never mind as it seems has been taken good care by my cousin brother on the centre issue with the owner. and guess what? i had just signed the documents which has sent by my cousin brother last Wednesday that he collected from the company secretary in Damansara Utama. as i knew once i signed, i can't pull out in last minute as i NEED to step forward and restart the new chapter. i knew the new beginning, my financial may be not as much as now, but if old folks spoke "tougher at beginning and will be smooth at last"... so if i have made up my mind, i shall move on the phrase of life... can't change or stop at nowhere it is...
yeah i am still remaining at grey zone now... hardly to change because i am scared. i admitted i wanted to change the life but i never acted too... so all the while was just doing the talks only... no actions at all...
sounds sad huh??? :(
so this time, my dear friend, WW and my dear cousin brother PC seem to push me although i am not totally ready but i still want to move on... *long sighs*
up to today, i haven't tendered my resignation letter to my current company... it seems i have no reason why i need to leave? funny? but i have my own plans already and i can't forever working with this current company... oh well, let's see how first as i need to tender in 1 week time... as i NEED to start at my centre very soon possibly in August... scared wei...
my brother had sold his BMW car and bought new car AUDI brand... his new car price is almost same as my new house price... O_O i also don't understand why he is getting richer than me? :( this year he bought new house in Sierra 16 as well as Audi car too... *sighs*
this year is slight difficult for me because we had just bought new house as well as i NEED to start my business too... everything happens too fast and i knew my hubby was not happy about my intuitions to have my own business because he was worried about the "future financial" which i may be not providing the expenses as usual... *face-palm*
what kind of this husband is he???? he is the MAN of this family yet he so worried for everything? i am sick of this!!!! :(
no matter how, i still would move on my plans without doubts. i believe if i move on it may be change the life to better than now? i guess? i planned this because in the future my brother would move into his new house in Sierra 16 and no longer staying at current place now, it may takes a long way to travel to his new place from my place as i need my parent to take care my kids but now i have double thinking about it because next year my youngest child would be going to Standard 1 and who would fetches him to school by that time? many things need to be considered now and i can't longer relying on my parents.
perhaps once i start with my own business, my timing may be flexible and i can personally send and pick my child from school as well as i can take care them by my own in my centre as well. they can learn together with another children right?
by this way, it may save my costs that i had spent too much for my two kids to nursery and daycare & tuition... in case my parent is going back to hometown for holiday? maybe one month? or more? who knows? and i also can't rely on my siblings either. my sister has a child to taken care and my brother has his own things to taken care... although i knew they may help me whenever i need but i can't always do that often. i need to plan for myself as well as for my children too....
no matter how it may be more difficult that i expected but i still try my best to improve for my family's good sake in the future... i just need everyone to support me that's all....
*long winded*
sometimes i feel my hubby is not going to help me... for sure because i knew his attitude. just like the case, the policies i bought for my children, i never asked for his permission but going to buy for them, the conclusion today is he never pays any cents for the children's policies... only i bear the costs for them. so it's okay. i chosen this. never mind. just let him be... no matter how hard it will be, i will try to solve the problems and thinking how to get the money to pay the policies...? i admitted my monthly salary from my current company is always insufficient... i have always back up from my own savings in case if i have no enough money to pay from my salaried account one...
even worse, my siblings chosen the expensive restaurant for my daddy birthday this week, i am afford not to tell that i can't pay more but just agreed like that because i don't want they talk / ask me why i no money and etc... because they don't understand my real situation, of course they always talk etc why i can't save money, why no money, save money, etc... they are not in my shoes how they know if i really have money or not... even worse, i bear the costs all myself... my hubby only pays the certain costs only NOT paying all! he will not pay my portions... he just pays the children things or certain things only...
see??? i am really very troubled now but nobody understands me!!! even my siblings, my parent,...? how i can tell everyone about my real problems when they look at my situation is totally different? better no need tell... i keep them in myself is ok.... i shall think how to solve the problems by myself in case if nobody helps me... it's ok... never mind....
no matter how poorer i am, i shall not let my children lack of foods. only for my children. not for my hubby ok...
my hubby always said i don't know how to save the money? how to save the money when i need to pay the expenses? if he has money also he will not help one instead of complains more even worse.... my children knew this so well. so? since my hubby said i am selfish, he is following my step to be even more selfish... :(
useless fella though!!! if he does like this why wanna to be a husband and daddy? really beh tahan!
never mind as i said... the life is really challenging my patience thru this phrase... have a husband like him really challenging my mental and physical mind because his attitude, his thinking, his character, his ways of talking, his ways of treating me, and etc are very childish if he is in a bad mood or anger mood... super childish!!!!!!!!!
once he is angry or what, he can just ignores me totally and never cares about my safety and etc... when he is in a good mood, he will getting worried about my safety and etc... like this recent week, he scolded me because i went to his office all alone although i knew the case had happened in his work place such the rob, rape and etc...
SO?????? THIS IS NOT I WANT.... THE BIG PROBLEM IS HIS ATTITUDE!!!! very stupid!
please do proper ways if he really cares me no matter if he angry or what, this is what he should does not to IGNORE ME...
it seems i am not his wife if he is in anger mood!!!! WTF! only those closer people knew how he used to treat me previously....
VERY STUPID!!!!!!!!!
beh tahan!
"please don't care me very much if you angry me! stupid! i don't need this way.... "
i am independent and i can take care myself when he is not around.... why he started to worried and cautious when there are cases happening? i don't need that larr.... since he doesn't seem to be sincere to take care me! very stupid.
*sighs, very upset indeed!*
xxx
ups and downs, i have been gone all the ways just to get myself a good one but it seems delayed as i was interrupted by many things causing i have missed them. oh well, never mind as it seems has been taken good care by my cousin brother on the centre issue with the owner. and guess what? i had just signed the documents which has sent by my cousin brother last Wednesday that he collected from the company secretary in Damansara Utama. as i knew once i signed, i can't pull out in last minute as i NEED to step forward and restart the new chapter. i knew the new beginning, my financial may be not as much as now, but if old folks spoke "tougher at beginning and will be smooth at last"... so if i have made up my mind, i shall move on the phrase of life... can't change or stop at nowhere it is...
yeah i am still remaining at grey zone now... hardly to change because i am scared. i admitted i wanted to change the life but i never acted too... so all the while was just doing the talks only... no actions at all...
sounds sad huh??? :(
so this time, my dear friend, WW and my dear cousin brother PC seem to push me although i am not totally ready but i still want to move on... *long sighs*
up to today, i haven't tendered my resignation letter to my current company... it seems i have no reason why i need to leave? funny? but i have my own plans already and i can't forever working with this current company... oh well, let's see how first as i need to tender in 1 week time... as i NEED to start at my centre very soon possibly in August... scared wei...
my brother had sold his BMW car and bought new car AUDI brand... his new car price is almost same as my new house price... O_O i also don't understand why he is getting richer than me? :( this year he bought new house in Sierra 16 as well as Audi car too... *sighs*
this year is slight difficult for me because we had just bought new house as well as i NEED to start my business too... everything happens too fast and i knew my hubby was not happy about my intuitions to have my own business because he was worried about the "future financial" which i may be not providing the expenses as usual... *face-palm*
what kind of this husband is he???? he is the MAN of this family yet he so worried for everything? i am sick of this!!!! :(
no matter how, i still would move on my plans without doubts. i believe if i move on it may be change the life to better than now? i guess? i planned this because in the future my brother would move into his new house in Sierra 16 and no longer staying at current place now, it may takes a long way to travel to his new place from my place as i need my parent to take care my kids but now i have double thinking about it because next year my youngest child would be going to Standard 1 and who would fetches him to school by that time? many things need to be considered now and i can't longer relying on my parents.
perhaps once i start with my own business, my timing may be flexible and i can personally send and pick my child from school as well as i can take care them by my own in my centre as well. they can learn together with another children right?
by this way, it may save my costs that i had spent too much for my two kids to nursery and daycare & tuition... in case my parent is going back to hometown for holiday? maybe one month? or more? who knows? and i also can't rely on my siblings either. my sister has a child to taken care and my brother has his own things to taken care... although i knew they may help me whenever i need but i can't always do that often. i need to plan for myself as well as for my children too....
no matter how it may be more difficult that i expected but i still try my best to improve for my family's good sake in the future... i just need everyone to support me that's all....
*long winded*
sometimes i feel my hubby is not going to help me... for sure because i knew his attitude. just like the case, the policies i bought for my children, i never asked for his permission but going to buy for them, the conclusion today is he never pays any cents for the children's policies... only i bear the costs for them. so it's okay. i chosen this. never mind. just let him be... no matter how hard it will be, i will try to solve the problems and thinking how to get the money to pay the policies...? i admitted my monthly salary from my current company is always insufficient... i have always back up from my own savings in case if i have no enough money to pay from my salaried account one...
even worse, my siblings chosen the expensive restaurant for my daddy birthday this week, i am afford not to tell that i can't pay more but just agreed like that because i don't want they talk / ask me why i no money and etc... because they don't understand my real situation, of course they always talk etc why i can't save money, why no money, save money, etc... they are not in my shoes how they know if i really have money or not... even worse, i bear the costs all myself... my hubby only pays the certain costs only NOT paying all! he will not pay my portions... he just pays the children things or certain things only...
see??? i am really very troubled now but nobody understands me!!! even my siblings, my parent,...? how i can tell everyone about my real problems when they look at my situation is totally different? better no need tell... i keep them in myself is ok.... i shall think how to solve the problems by myself in case if nobody helps me... it's ok... never mind....
no matter how poorer i am, i shall not let my children lack of foods. only for my children. not for my hubby ok...
my hubby always said i don't know how to save the money? how to save the money when i need to pay the expenses? if he has money also he will not help one instead of complains more even worse.... my children knew this so well. so? since my hubby said i am selfish, he is following my step to be even more selfish... :(
useless fella though!!! if he does like this why wanna to be a husband and daddy? really beh tahan!
never mind as i said... the life is really challenging my patience thru this phrase... have a husband like him really challenging my mental and physical mind because his attitude, his thinking, his character, his ways of talking, his ways of treating me, and etc are very childish if he is in a bad mood or anger mood... super childish!!!!!!!!!
once he is angry or what, he can just ignores me totally and never cares about my safety and etc... when he is in a good mood, he will getting worried about my safety and etc... like this recent week, he scolded me because i went to his office all alone although i knew the case had happened in his work place such the rob, rape and etc...
SO?????? THIS IS NOT I WANT.... THE BIG PROBLEM IS HIS ATTITUDE!!!! very stupid!
please do proper ways if he really cares me no matter if he angry or what, this is what he should does not to IGNORE ME...
it seems i am not his wife if he is in anger mood!!!! WTF! only those closer people knew how he used to treat me previously....
VERY STUPID!!!!!!!!!
beh tahan!
"please don't care me very much if you angry me! stupid! i don't need this way.... "
i am independent and i can take care myself when he is not around.... why he started to worried and cautious when there are cases happening? i don't need that larr.... since he doesn't seem to be sincere to take care me! very stupid.
*sighs, very upset indeed!*
xxx
Friday, June 14, 2013
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
a hectic week...
wow... it has been a week plus since i last blogged last week... oh well i was really busier that week! guess what? i have joined the entrepreneur course last week which was scheduled on 11st-14th May at HQ, Kuala Lumpur... i went there by taking LRT rather than driving all the ways to KL... as everyone knew KL traffic was pretty bad eh... i rather save my cost, petrol and energy! hehe...
oh well i was back to school life as a student for 4 days course... i really missed those school / college days!!! i left school more than 10 years... anyway, bits more to feel like a student temporarily... hehe... i got to know many friends thru course and they also wanted to be entrepreneurs too...
good eh?
by the way, i have 2-3 course mates contact in touch although there was created a whatsapp group with 50 contacts of course mates... so far i contact 3 of them most for now...
i was blessed to know them because they were able to share the variety of problems... so that i could learn from them...
i joined this course with my own expenses... without any sponsors! i also don't have any supports from my family and my hubs too...
all the 4 days courses, i was busy with myself whilst my hubs brought the kids out to FRIM and shopping malls... and he never text-ed me no matter where they went or so... NEVER! and even worse when they came back from FRIM another day, my hubs never asked or text-ed me to ask me if i would like to eat anything instead of buying themselves and took away to home... too bad eh?
hmm... never mind, i had a light dinner earlier at my dad place but at least try to send a message to ask what, where, who, which and how about me but he never, never did so... i did not know what was on his mind, seemed never cared me at all when i went for a course in 4 days... he never asked me what time to finish and etc... especially on Saturday, when i went for a course... he went out with the children, never sent messages to me and asking what time to finish the course and what time to leave and etc, instead of going to FRIM! that time i was on LRT and whatsapp-ing him, asking him where was he now... he replied that he was in the car on the way to FRIM... *speechless* and asking me going there by myself, i didn't feel wanna go there though and back to my dad place since my sis was there.... i was heartbroken because he never informed me.... *long sighs* so bad eh? :(
even on Mother day, he also never wished me cos he spoke that he was not the one should wishing and this celebration was specially for the children to wish and thankful for me... i found this was ridiculous because i am a wife and a mother too, ain't he should feel thankful for me doing duties as a wife and a mother at same time, gave him two lovely kids? didn't he feel appreciate this way eh? so selfish fella!!! even wanna celebrated the Mother day after my course, he showed the long face... seemed like being forced to celebrate... :(
not a first time, it was happening once my birthday this early year... he also never felt happy to celebrate, complained that he just came back from outstation still wanna going out to celebrate, said i didn't know how much tiring he was and bla blaa.... i noticed he really had no heart or intention to celebrate my birthday so did this Mother day celebration... even wanna gave present which i wished also he showed the long face...
not sincere at all.... :(
too bad eh?
and we were having the Mother day lunch with my family on Sunday, my daughter asked me what time i finish the course, i replied was about 4.50pm or 5pm like that and she told me that she has asked daddy about it, guess what? my hubs said i finished course at 8pm...
hello, i never told him that i finish the course at 8pm lar... he was purposely telling like that to my daughter... so bad eh...
and my hubs never reminded me to be careful on the road during taking the LRT etc... he just never cared whatever i did since i have chosen this path to attend the course that i have paid which he spoke it was not a good idea since he himself also went to many courses for free that provided by his company and i spoke that was not same... sighs....
i asked him what did he learn during the training? he didn't say anything though... never mind... this is my choice to learn more about the course, it's okay to pay... i think it's still worth for my future investment though...
i realized that my hubs is not real fully supporting whatever i do...
until a very last day of the course, the thing went on and nothing changed. he never congratulated me for finishing the course and etc... he just took this as nothing happened....
*speechless*
how much heartbroken did i have now? do anyone know how much disappointments and upset i have been gone thru now????
why did i have a husband like him? never appreciate and never thankful one!!!
:(
xxx
oh well i was back to school life as a student for 4 days course... i really missed those school / college days!!! i left school more than 10 years... anyway, bits more to feel like a student temporarily... hehe... i got to know many friends thru course and they also wanted to be entrepreneurs too...
good eh?
by the way, i have 2-3 course mates contact in touch although there was created a whatsapp group with 50 contacts of course mates... so far i contact 3 of them most for now...
i was blessed to know them because they were able to share the variety of problems... so that i could learn from them...
i joined this course with my own expenses... without any sponsors! i also don't have any supports from my family and my hubs too...
all the 4 days courses, i was busy with myself whilst my hubs brought the kids out to FRIM and shopping malls... and he never text-ed me no matter where they went or so... NEVER! and even worse when they came back from FRIM another day, my hubs never asked or text-ed me to ask me if i would like to eat anything instead of buying themselves and took away to home... too bad eh?
hmm... never mind, i had a light dinner earlier at my dad place but at least try to send a message to ask what, where, who, which and how about me but he never, never did so... i did not know what was on his mind, seemed never cared me at all when i went for a course in 4 days... he never asked me what time to finish and etc... especially on Saturday, when i went for a course... he went out with the children, never sent messages to me and asking what time to finish the course and what time to leave and etc, instead of going to FRIM! that time i was on LRT and whatsapp-ing him, asking him where was he now... he replied that he was in the car on the way to FRIM... *speechless* and asking me going there by myself, i didn't feel wanna go there though and back to my dad place since my sis was there.... i was heartbroken because he never informed me.... *long sighs* so bad eh? :(
even on Mother day, he also never wished me cos he spoke that he was not the one should wishing and this celebration was specially for the children to wish and thankful for me... i found this was ridiculous because i am a wife and a mother too, ain't he should feel thankful for me doing duties as a wife and a mother at same time, gave him two lovely kids? didn't he feel appreciate this way eh? so selfish fella!!! even wanna celebrated the Mother day after my course, he showed the long face... seemed like being forced to celebrate... :(
not a first time, it was happening once my birthday this early year... he also never felt happy to celebrate, complained that he just came back from outstation still wanna going out to celebrate, said i didn't know how much tiring he was and bla blaa.... i noticed he really had no heart or intention to celebrate my birthday so did this Mother day celebration... even wanna gave present which i wished also he showed the long face...
not sincere at all.... :(
too bad eh?
and we were having the Mother day lunch with my family on Sunday, my daughter asked me what time i finish the course, i replied was about 4.50pm or 5pm like that and she told me that she has asked daddy about it, guess what? my hubs said i finished course at 8pm...
hello, i never told him that i finish the course at 8pm lar... he was purposely telling like that to my daughter... so bad eh...
and my hubs never reminded me to be careful on the road during taking the LRT etc... he just never cared whatever i did since i have chosen this path to attend the course that i have paid which he spoke it was not a good idea since he himself also went to many courses for free that provided by his company and i spoke that was not same... sighs....
i asked him what did he learn during the training? he didn't say anything though... never mind... this is my choice to learn more about the course, it's okay to pay... i think it's still worth for my future investment though...
i realized that my hubs is not real fully supporting whatever i do...
until a very last day of the course, the thing went on and nothing changed. he never congratulated me for finishing the course and etc... he just took this as nothing happened....
*speechless*
how much heartbroken did i have now? do anyone know how much disappointments and upset i have been gone thru now????
why did i have a husband like him? never appreciate and never thankful one!!!
:(
xxx
Friday, May 10, 2013
here is TGIF - - -
it's Friday again... can't imagine it flies so fast in a week time... yet there are ways to achieve! oh well, i was worrying about how would i take off for two days by next week to attend the course? since there are darn a lot of jobs due to convention things... but i am determined to take leave! no choice... perhaps it's a wrong timing to happen and the course is not always happening. hence, i must attend for this course.
oh well, i have told my hubs about this and he asked is...
"this fee rm500 for this course... u paid?"
i answered "yeah? i will bear my responsibility..."
and he said after this - - "if u got no extra money later on, don't even ask me to help.... you said you bear the responsibility on this...?
sounded like very selfish, never helped me!
i still remember when he became a full time freelancer, always no income sometimes, i bore all the expenses and sometimes i never complained, i was thick face to ask for helps such like borrowing the money from my sister, my friends and even worse from my sisters-in-law... i didn't return the money to them because they understood my situations but as for my sisters-in-law, i have to return to them as they would think i was purposely not returning to them as they look at my things like i was afford to buy but not afford to return to them plus my hubs kept forcing / warning me to return back to them...
is better to return to them, afterward i will no more owe with them, less burdens on me... only my siblings and my friends of mine only i can return for anytime once i really afford to pay settlements... hope so...
*finger-crossed*
by the way, i think i would travel all the way to HQ, KL by myself... either taking the LRT or driving myself to there, i also asked my hubs to fetch me there on weekend but he asked me go myself better. because he can't wait longer plus he needs to take care the kids... is okay for me, that's understandable and i just need a little support from him.. *long sighs*
oh well, i just hope i am able to follow the course later...
yay, i finally got the approval for two days leave by next week but of course i have to bring the assignments back home to work :(
because i was purposely lying that i took leave to take care the kids and my parent is going to travel... but i really have no choice. otherwise, they would not allow me going since there are a lot of jobs to do for coming convention soon... aiyoo... this is a real busier period now... *face-palm*
but is okay, i lied once in a while... just to attend the course! hope this is worth for me! long breathe...
i am slightly worried about this weekend... wondering this weekend would be busier for me. and another 2 days after weekend might be busier to me as well... oh well, i haven't settled my HLB current account... i was real busier today, gotta to send my car to service and had late lunch with my hubs and came in office late, got the scoldings by A... i am really tension!
therefore, i haven't settled the deposit with the owner yet! :(
i am real busier this week...
xxx
oh well, i have told my hubs about this and he asked is...
"this fee rm500 for this course... u paid?"
i answered "yeah? i will bear my responsibility..."
and he said after this - - "if u got no extra money later on, don't even ask me to help.... you said you bear the responsibility on this...?
sounded like very selfish, never helped me!
i still remember when he became a full time freelancer, always no income sometimes, i bore all the expenses and sometimes i never complained, i was thick face to ask for helps such like borrowing the money from my sister, my friends and even worse from my sisters-in-law... i didn't return the money to them because they understood my situations but as for my sisters-in-law, i have to return to them as they would think i was purposely not returning to them as they look at my things like i was afford to buy but not afford to return to them plus my hubs kept forcing / warning me to return back to them...
is better to return to them, afterward i will no more owe with them, less burdens on me... only my siblings and my friends of mine only i can return for anytime once i really afford to pay settlements... hope so...
*finger-crossed*
by the way, i think i would travel all the way to HQ, KL by myself... either taking the LRT or driving myself to there, i also asked my hubs to fetch me there on weekend but he asked me go myself better. because he can't wait longer plus he needs to take care the kids... is okay for me, that's understandable and i just need a little support from him.. *long sighs*
oh well, i just hope i am able to follow the course later...
yay, i finally got the approval for two days leave by next week but of course i have to bring the assignments back home to work :(
because i was purposely lying that i took leave to take care the kids and my parent is going to travel... but i really have no choice. otherwise, they would not allow me going since there are a lot of jobs to do for coming convention soon... aiyoo... this is a real busier period now... *face-palm*
but is okay, i lied once in a while... just to attend the course! hope this is worth for me! long breathe...
i am slightly worried about this weekend... wondering this weekend would be busier for me. and another 2 days after weekend might be busier to me as well... oh well, i haven't settled my HLB current account... i was real busier today, gotta to send my car to service and had late lunch with my hubs and came in office late, got the scoldings by A... i am really tension!
therefore, i haven't settled the deposit with the owner yet! :(
i am real busier this week...
xxx
Friday, April 12, 2013
might not going to Pulau Lang Tengah
i was having the lunch with my colleagues, WC and Mr Chan earlier... we spoke about the company trip to Pulau Lang Tengah... guess what?!!
they are not going!
so i double-thought of that coz normally i will be in one room with WC but now if i am going, to whom i shall share a room? plus i don't know with 2nd and 3rd floors's colleagues that close... and the whole 1st floor colleagues are not going except A...
if i am going, there'll be only me and A... i find this is really not fun at all... hence, i just forget it although i really wanted to go and snorkeling! but no choice... never mind! there'll be any chances to visit that island :)
but sadly this 1st floor colleagues don't go... *long sighs*
:(
xxx
they are not going!
so i double-thought of that coz normally i will be in one room with WC but now if i am going, to whom i shall share a room? plus i don't know with 2nd and 3rd floors's colleagues that close... and the whole 1st floor colleagues are not going except A...
if i am going, there'll be only me and A... i find this is really not fun at all... hence, i just forget it although i really wanted to go and snorkeling! but no choice... never mind! there'll be any chances to visit that island :)
but sadly this 1st floor colleagues don't go... *long sighs*
:(
xxx
Friday, March 22, 2013
half day
today i will be on half day... got things to do later. oh well, the office environment seems too boring! and i am still moody... hehe, it's okay. i will getting better later :)
i don't need to cheer up everyone for sure! because it's none of my business and i don't care whatever Miss L does, wasting the time only. i could only ignore her since she is really problematic! she said everyone has a brain problem whilst she is super good. i really fed up with ways she spoke. not only me, everyone knew but just "layan" jee...
oh well...
xxx
i don't need to cheer up everyone for sure! because it's none of my business and i don't care whatever Miss L does, wasting the time only. i could only ignore her since she is really problematic! she said everyone has a brain problem whilst she is super good. i really fed up with ways she spoke. not only me, everyone knew but just "layan" jee...
oh well...
xxx
Monday, March 18, 2013
Monday Blues
yay it's Monday Blues anyway, but... i finally crushed my Candy Crush Saga at Level 23 yesterday night after tried and error for a week plus... swt!!!! *happy dance* hehe... do u notice that this game is really challenging my patiences... hehe... don't know how true it is but my patiences really gonna mad when i couldn't break the hardest level.
*mad like cow*
anyway it's over, now is another level 28 where i am now, oh NO... another hard level again :(
i am really hell busy today. not only rushing the magazine, i also need to do another jobs for another company... :(
what a Monday Blues...
xxx
*mad like cow*
anyway it's over, now is another level 28 where i am now, oh NO... another hard level again :(
i am really hell busy today. not only rushing the magazine, i also need to do another jobs for another company... :(
what a Monday Blues...
xxx
Saturday, March 16, 2013
A Boring Saturday
yes i am working today but it's boring... Oh NO...
i have been playing the Candy Crush Saga these few weeks until level 23 where i couldn't fully crushed the jellies :(
don't know where's wrong. either am i stupid or the candy tricks me? hmm....
i tried sooo hard until i went mad like cow! hehe... oh well most of my siblings and friends had passed to the highest levels whilst i stuck there still at level 23... and i googled about Candy Crush Saga at level 23, many people commented that level 23 is so hard to crushed indeed... not me stupid eh?
hmm... okay, i shall try it again later since my colleague has taught me something about Candy Crush Saga level 23 where the sugar meets with the striped sugar become exploded so hard compared to a colorful chocolate? wondering it is???
hmm...
xxx
i have been playing the Candy Crush Saga these few weeks until level 23 where i couldn't fully crushed the jellies :(
* source *
don't know where's wrong. either am i stupid or the candy tricks me? hmm....
i tried sooo hard until i went mad like cow! hehe... oh well most of my siblings and friends had passed to the highest levels whilst i stuck there still at level 23... and i googled about Candy Crush Saga at level 23, many people commented that level 23 is so hard to crushed indeed... not me stupid eh?
hmm... okay, i shall try it again later since my colleague has taught me something about Candy Crush Saga level 23 where the sugar meets with the striped sugar become exploded so hard compared to a colorful chocolate? wondering it is???
hmm...
xxx
Friday, March 15, 2013
back to work after a hiatus - - -
i have been on MC these 2 days. and i am back to working life as usually although it's a Friday Blues! hmm... sometimes i feel this company is like a Zombie house where nobody greets each other. indeed, i miss my previous first company where i worked for first time after moved to here from Johor 9 years ago. that time i was a full time housewife in Johor and i was indeed unhappy every second, minute, month and year when i was in Johor after married and had my first child. we had argued almost everyday due to this reason which i spoke out that i wanna move back to where i was born and grew up, there's my hometown where i have my family, friends and life there not in Johor! *sorry to say this, this is from my bottom of heart, i never thought to stay in Johor forever...*
okay back to the topic i mentioned earlier... i have been working here for 2 years plus... this coming August sooner, it would be 3 years. the time flies so fast and there's nothing to be challenged all the years i work here and i feel boring and not so energetic as before. of course, the projects keep repeating the same, no shiok at all de...
so far, i speak frankly. here is can be said okay lor, compared to the previous one before i started to join this current company. the previous one where i worked in Bandar Kinrara, near Giant but it was in industrial area, i don't want to tell the name of company because i don't want to bad mouth about this. enough to say for now. i had a bad experience during working at my previous company. bosses and manager were so biassed. they cared one more than everyone although the mad dog i meant was the manager always screamed madly during working times and even screamed in the phone...
we all were really pissed off with her but at times she is a kinded heart, just that she and i were not that so "ngam"... hard to communicate each other. not only this problem, i also had a bad experience to encounter everyone in the company. everyone was so hypocrite and pretending to be nice with me but back of the story was different, it was like i was stabbed behind without my realization! damn eh?
no longer after few months after i was assigned to work here, i tendered a resignation letter and everyone seemed to be happy. so bye to that previous company! i don't want to mention some more about that company. pissed off though eh?
okay, since i joined this current company 2 years ago, so far everything is okay. just that there's still a slightly politic each other! i don't trust most of them because once i was stabbed, i knew who's the culprit and won't longer socialize with them anymore, i keep low profile and doing my works at times is better than gossiping that waste my time only. agree?
okay, definitely not all colleagues are meant to do so, certain people only yeah!
close one eye, everything is fine :)
xxx
okay back to the topic i mentioned earlier... i have been working here for 2 years plus... this coming August sooner, it would be 3 years. the time flies so fast and there's nothing to be challenged all the years i work here and i feel boring and not so energetic as before. of course, the projects keep repeating the same, no shiok at all de...
so far, i speak frankly. here is can be said okay lor, compared to the previous one before i started to join this current company. the previous one where i worked in Bandar Kinrara, near Giant but it was in industrial area, i don't want to tell the name of company because i don't want to bad mouth about this. enough to say for now. i had a bad experience during working at my previous company. bosses and manager were so biassed. they cared one more than everyone although the mad dog i meant was the manager always screamed madly during working times and even screamed in the phone...
we all were really pissed off with her but at times she is a kinded heart, just that she and i were not that so "ngam"... hard to communicate each other. not only this problem, i also had a bad experience to encounter everyone in the company. everyone was so hypocrite and pretending to be nice with me but back of the story was different, it was like i was stabbed behind without my realization! damn eh?
no longer after few months after i was assigned to work here, i tendered a resignation letter and everyone seemed to be happy. so bye to that previous company! i don't want to mention some more about that company. pissed off though eh?
okay, since i joined this current company 2 years ago, so far everything is okay. just that there's still a slightly politic each other! i don't trust most of them because once i was stabbed, i knew who's the culprit and won't longer socialize with them anymore, i keep low profile and doing my works at times is better than gossiping that waste my time only. agree?
okay, definitely not all colleagues are meant to do so, certain people only yeah!
close one eye, everything is fine :)
xxx
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
so sleepy
Tuesday Blues... i am so sleepy! woke up in wee hours and checking the time at my handphone. i admit i got worried about fetching my daughter to school at late hour and she might be punished for this. my faults.
throughout the day, i am so sleepy yet so busy with my works. feel not so enjoying with this kind of life though. so no choice, need to think already once everything is confirmed.
oh well... left a few minutes to bid a good bye, need go home and rest already. otherwise i might baking later :)
xxx
throughout the day, i am so sleepy yet so busy with my works. feel not so enjoying with this kind of life though. so no choice, need to think already once everything is confirmed.
oh well... left a few minutes to bid a good bye, need go home and rest already. otherwise i might baking later :)
xxx
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Good Morning
Good Morning... though it's Thursday Blue! hehe... i am still sleepy! supposed to go bed earlier but i was late to bed about 11pm ++... and woke up at 6am yet i am so sleepy now...
reached office earlier and started working until now... never stop! the jobs are always loaded non-stop. thought feel want to take a break!
yay i need a holiday!
oh well, this job is really boring and nothing is challenging me! repeating the same which is driving me nuts all the time and the salary is always never satisfied me! so?
what a working life now!
hmm... suddenly i miss someone! :(
bleh...
xxx
reached office earlier and started working until now... never stop! the jobs are always loaded non-stop. thought feel want to take a break!
yay i need a holiday!
oh well, this job is really boring and nothing is challenging me! repeating the same which is driving me nuts all the time and the salary is always never satisfied me! so?
what a working life now!
hmm... suddenly i miss someone! :(
bleh...
xxx
Thursday, February 7, 2013
company CNY dinner
We had the CNY dinner earlier. It was fun!!! :)
Shall tell more later. I am tired and wanna sleep now...
xxx
Shall tell more later. I am tired and wanna sleep now...
xxx
Saturday, February 2, 2013
What A Saturday!!!!!!!
:: someone is promoted... ::
the big boss announced earlier that Abang Raub has promoted to be supervisor... how nice leh, everyone is celebrating for him and even presenting a cake for him... (clap hand)
for me, i have been working so long but had never experienced about promoted... oh well, just ignore, but this needs to work very harder to achieve the dream!
:: Saturday words ::
now i need to plan already and i can't work for people forever like that. as i had spoken in previous entry, we are currently looking for a house... so many houses we have been visited and we have no interest for those houses because of the further place and travel to two places (my current place, as well as my dad's house and my kids school are based here!) so we don't think that is a good idea to live a further place that we had looked for in Balakong... ain't this further from our current place now?
oh well, my dad is upset! he advised us to look around here at very least to lighten our burdens eg. my dad will be here for me whenever i need his helps, my kids school are based here, my hubs and mine working place is based here too and the environments give us the best already here. nearby shopping mall, hypermarkets, shopping areas and etc. plus, it's an ideal place for us but the price is a matter!!!
nowadays this area is really expensive more than those further areas such like puchong south, balakong, serdang etc although these places are selling the reasonable price but too further!
we still choose this place, maybe our current place but different block? maybe? need to see whether this is available? as well as those apartments around here, just try our luck to get a better place with a reasonable price that is worth for our limited budgets.
luckily i had reminded my hubs that we can't rush to look for a house. too rush will cause everything is messy... in fact, i was lucky to stop him from buying that top floor unit next to my block because not about the basic unit, but the condition of unit which is not a really good, like the ceiling seems crack, the door seems broken before, the place is not so clean and super dirty like this place had abandoned for a long time, these make me double-thought to purchase or not.
oh well, just my luck! my hubs changed his mind and stop blaming me. in fact, we have a plenty of time to look for the house for now IF he starts this month and onward non-stop until we find an ideal house then we just purchase once we feel the house is perfectly provided everything such like the environment and the place is occupied by the tenant currently so that we would be feeling safe to know this place has lived before and at least after we take over, we just need to adjust the place that's all.. better than a house which has not lived for a long time, everything is messy, here and there something's wrong... sounds like "ghost house".... scary eh?
i know if the abandoned house for long time, we still can clean and renovate if we want but i find this is not a good idea though because the hubs had spoken, if we purchase this unit, we just clean and the renovation will be done later because this is over budget... and this is not a short term! we would live this unit for long term.... and we need to provide a better environment for our children right? that's why? i need to double thinking about this and try to persuade the hubs. because sometimes the wife's intuition may be accurate, but needs to look what's the matter first. like the hubs's budget is limited, i try to adjust the line so that we will be afford as well. not to trouble even more.
oh yeah... today is Saturday! what to do later eh?
look forward to meet my lil nephew sooner! as well as my darling kids ;)
Happy Saturday yay!!
xxx
the big boss announced earlier that Abang Raub has promoted to be supervisor... how nice leh, everyone is celebrating for him and even presenting a cake for him... (clap hand)
for me, i have been working so long but had never experienced about promoted... oh well, just ignore, but this needs to work very harder to achieve the dream!
:: Saturday words ::
now i need to plan already and i can't work for people forever like that. as i had spoken in previous entry, we are currently looking for a house... so many houses we have been visited and we have no interest for those houses because of the further place and travel to two places (my current place, as well as my dad's house and my kids school are based here!) so we don't think that is a good idea to live a further place that we had looked for in Balakong... ain't this further from our current place now?
oh well, my dad is upset! he advised us to look around here at very least to lighten our burdens eg. my dad will be here for me whenever i need his helps, my kids school are based here, my hubs and mine working place is based here too and the environments give us the best already here. nearby shopping mall, hypermarkets, shopping areas and etc. plus, it's an ideal place for us but the price is a matter!!!
nowadays this area is really expensive more than those further areas such like puchong south, balakong, serdang etc although these places are selling the reasonable price but too further!
we still choose this place, maybe our current place but different block? maybe? need to see whether this is available? as well as those apartments around here, just try our luck to get a better place with a reasonable price that is worth for our limited budgets.
luckily i had reminded my hubs that we can't rush to look for a house. too rush will cause everything is messy... in fact, i was lucky to stop him from buying that top floor unit next to my block because not about the basic unit, but the condition of unit which is not a really good, like the ceiling seems crack, the door seems broken before, the place is not so clean and super dirty like this place had abandoned for a long time, these make me double-thought to purchase or not.
oh well, just my luck! my hubs changed his mind and stop blaming me. in fact, we have a plenty of time to look for the house for now IF he starts this month and onward non-stop until we find an ideal house then we just purchase once we feel the house is perfectly provided everything such like the environment and the place is occupied by the tenant currently so that we would be feeling safe to know this place has lived before and at least after we take over, we just need to adjust the place that's all.. better than a house which has not lived for a long time, everything is messy, here and there something's wrong... sounds like "ghost house".... scary eh?
i know if the abandoned house for long time, we still can clean and renovate if we want but i find this is not a good idea though because the hubs had spoken, if we purchase this unit, we just clean and the renovation will be done later because this is over budget... and this is not a short term! we would live this unit for long term.... and we need to provide a better environment for our children right? that's why? i need to double thinking about this and try to persuade the hubs. because sometimes the wife's intuition may be accurate, but needs to look what's the matter first. like the hubs's budget is limited, i try to adjust the line so that we will be afford as well. not to trouble even more.
oh yeah... today is Saturday! what to do later eh?
look forward to meet my lil nephew sooner! as well as my darling kids ;)
Happy Saturday yay!!
xxx
Friday, January 4, 2013
1TB Seagate Portable Drive
i just got these two new Seagate Portable Drive yesterday morning to replace my old hardisk and i was thinking of my old Hitachi hardisk which could NOT be recovered already... the report was out and the scratch plate had seriously damaged! there's no solutions for this...
my mind was paused a while...
thinking about my past projects which i had been worked hard since i joined this company for first day until now is GONE!
year 2010-2012 projects FOREVER GONE!!!! *heartbroken*
:(
there's no turn back or what... i better move on and look forward the better! to think i need to redo all over again. no choice!
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