a sweet story although it's just a time ♥

just found that my favourite dimple guy had removed his FB and everything that i could not find anymore... thought what had happened? we are barely talking each other on the cyber... i seldom know about what happens to him but whatever it is... i still care him as a dear friend who i used to like in the past and the present as well although in fact everything is changed... i mean our status are different already. i am attached whilst he is still hunting for the right one.... still we are friends what... i don't know if he really treats me as a friend or not...?

oh well... i admit i always check on his FB updates, love to do so... but his FB remains quiet... not much active as mine... a day before yesterday, his FB was there... just checking instantly but nothing was updated apart from the breakfast link that he invited one but none replied him... i just ignored this part since i am not living in US though... mmm...

and yesterday... when i went to his page but it didn't appear... i found this was strange? i tried to open his page but can't... then only i realized he was totally removed his FB account for goods. i was real shocking for this. why he removed? tried to recall any reasons... at first i saw his innocent picture, i told him this was real cute because he looked innocent in this picture and he laughed, mentioned that we shall meet again later this year... and onward, he removed all the profile picture except the dull picture which he looked unhappy in black and white mode...

and NOW, he is not longer at FB account, i don't know how to find him or contact him? i also not sure he keeps my number in case he wants to contact me? i am sure he would not keeps one! perhaps because he refused to give me his US number when i requested that time... :(

i still remember vividly when i found him in FB for first time was in November 2009, it was 4 years ago... then had spoke on and off... and he barely spoke to me until last year which was on Mayan New Year, he contacted me back thru FB message. we spoke thru FB as well as SMS which was given by him. that was a Malaysia number NOT US number... :( he used this number temporarily only. not for permanent one.

oh well, we met for first time, at Setia Walk by 9am sharp after 6 days from the date we first spoke. he wore the Red shirt and white short pant, brown shoes whilst i wore the baby blue dress which he said this was really nice.

*source - Starbuck Setia Walk*

:: memory :: memory ::

that was where he waited

for me... ♥

yay the Starbuck where we met.... everytime i passby there, i will miss that memory where we had created the memories once. although it was just a short time but still i had fun with him but i didn't know whether was he fun with me or not... whatever was it... i still appreciate those times with him... although for first time and perhaps it would be the last time as well because he removed the FB account and i thought he would not keeping his words to meet me again later this year... perhaps. in fact when he spoke that he would meet me again later this year, i even prepare to bake the cheddar cheese cake for him when he is back to Malaysia... BUT now it may not happens anymore...

the memory just fades away...

he is not there anymore...

i am really upset with him...

even he wanna removes his FB account, at least he should speaks or informs me and i could have his contact number so on... but he never did so...

now i totally lost, don't know how to contact him again...

sometimes i really miss when he texted me by calling me the full name of mine... i felt warm and loving.

i think he should knows i am used to crazy of him during secondary school and now... but he seems ... i don't know how to explain but i really want to get together with him for once... love is hard to predictable but if i don't do now, i shall get regret later on...

but now, i think i don't need these anymore since he doesn't appreciate everything we created and i guess he thought this was just a meeting between strangers.

oh well, just ignore... i still appreciate and will miss him as well as the memories we had created ONCE and the ONLY MEMORY! after 10 years plus since we left secondary school... i have been looking for him ups and downs... eventually i found him 4 years ago in FB. i was thankful to Facebook because it helped me to contact him back BUT now he is not longer there...

i don't know if it's worth that i had created the memories with him once? sounds funny and awful!

never mind, i think he just needs times and spaces for him alone... i just could give him blessings and hope he takes well care of himself and happy everyday!

Lev, I miss you... take care!

xxx